The lack of sleep has worn on me
(and the baby isn’t even here yet!) to where I’m so dreadfully tired that I am
at a loss of motivation for getting in workouts. My immune system has also been work down to
the point where now I am also sick on top of it all (fever, chills, achy everywhere). I’ve attempted a nap a couple times, and
though I’m not a nap taker, I finally fell asleep for one today. Much needed.
I’m up so often during the night that the baby should just be here
already (though I know it’s best to a bake a bit longer). The final month of pregnancy drives a woman
mad – to the point where she’d rather just go through labor and delivery and be
done with it, then be pregnant any longer.
We’ve been
locked down in winter for so long with so much cold and snow (poor outside
running conditions) - it wears on you.
Getting out and skating and Cross Country skiing has been a good escape
and a way to find some enjoyment in it, but I’m mostly just tired. And while I know things will get harder for
awhile, as life with a newborn does, and then adding the track season on top of
it (have to get us out the door at a certain time and finding sitters or
managing practices and meets with kids in tow) really exhausts you, as well as
trying to get into a new workout routine that accommodates both kids and the
time schedule we have to work within, it all seems overwhelming, a bit
hopeless, a bit TOO MUCH. Frustration
and exhaustion will inevitably only increase.
But then
spring will also eventually show up, and with it, new life (beyond just the new
baby) and energy and excitement. And
hope. There is a lot to look forward to
this year: our growing family, a season of exciting races culminating in
wearing the Team USA uniform at the World Championships, and even a growing
team of sponsors that I have for support (more to come on that later!). So as exhausting and frustrating as it has
been lately, the big picture can’t be forgotten, and the setbacks mustn’t be
the main focus. They’re temporary. A friend shared a quote with me at just the
right time: “Do not let what you can not do interfere with what you can do.” –
John Wooden. Don’t let the setbacks
define you, rather how you respond to and make it through them!
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